tonight was the "bye bye blaisey" ::inhabit cookout. my friends are amazing and i am going to miss them dearly. we spent the night grilling in the rain and then after it cleared up we played a good ol' hick game of cornhole. [you know, the game where you throw bean bags through a whole in a little homemade tilted platform thing.] there are people in that group that define who i am. there are people in that group that i have poured my soul into. there are people on that group that have poured their soul and then some into mine.
i am starting to come to the realization that im leaving soon. everything has this, "i wonder if people in other parts of the country do this?" question tagged to it. everything here will be a memory soon, but then again everything you do will end up a memory. i guess thats a pretty negative way to look at it. i just dont have a clue what to expect. a girl that use to be a roadie told me thats for the best. i am excited to get to know these people, and i am definitely looking forward to living in a community with them.
most of my money is raised, praise God for that. i wasn't sure if that was going to work out in such a timely fashion. the next 12 days will consist of deciding what to take, and how to take it. i guess relevant magazine says its cheaper to ship luggage than to take it these days. crazy.
i said i wasn't going to, but i am halfway tempted to go watch dark knight in the next few days, very rarely do people talk this much about a movie only to be let down by it. call me what you want but i hated the movie sin city. it just wasn't my thing. people wouldn't shut up about that.
here is something worth checking out though. ratatat's new album "lp3" its amazing. i cant think of the last time i bought an album and EVERY single track was amazing. this one is though, i promise.
john cleveland posed an interesting question today: "can you or anyone else mess up God's plan for life? or is that God's plan and its just not the way you saw it? your mess up is just a step to the final outcome." i dont know. you can call it what you want but i honestly just dont know. i think they call that predestination but if that were the case why even try to do whats "right" ...unless thats just part of Gods plan.
too much for this tired little brain of mine.
well its time to pack up and head to the jank apartment that i sometimes attempt to call home, i havent felt at "home" in months. its time to move, make a new home.
peace out girl scout.
1 comment:
Hey, it's Jocelyn Shade from Eastern University. You might want to read your email before you read this so your warned that I'm reading your blog lol.
So don't think I'm creeper or anything by google-ing you (to try and find your email) and then finding your blog and reading it. it's just that i want to be a roadie so badly and since i'm going to meet you in october i thought it'd be cool to read it. i read dave hong's (dunno if you know him but he was a roadie last year, and he/his family goes to my church at home) but i would read his life of an IC roadie blog and i'm friends with chis zwakenberg (he's ex-roadie twice over...so jealous), and my friend lived in Nepal for awhile and I read her blog too. So I'm reading yours now haha. I started with this one. 3 things:
i love cornhole. such a fun game. originated in Ohio, where I was born, but I'm from DE (like Anna Schuck!) and go to Eastern U in PA.
"can you or anyone else mess up God's plan for life? or is that God's plan and its just not the way you saw it? your mess up is just a step to the final outcome." here's my outlook. it started with the Creation, onto the Fall, and the exile (from the garden of Eden). God created human beings, knowing beforehand that they would fail him. But he created them anyways and gave them a second chance. He could have erased us totally and started all over. But he didn't. Life continues to be like this. God creates opportunities for us, knowing when we're going to fail them and when we're not, and knowing when life is going to screw them up. Like someone dying. But then he takes that downfall and turns it into something good. Continuing with the dying person example, God gives the person who's lost the other the experience of losing someone, so they can have empathy towards someone else who has lost someone. Ultimately this system is created for leading someone to Christ but it doesn't always go that far. But I believe that God creates opportunities, and when we don't go through with them, because of free-will, God gives us know opportunities. His plans don't change because of our free will, because he knew all along that we were going to screw up.
And I don't remember the third thing, it might have just been that I want to be a roadie which explains why I'm reading this blog in the frist place and also why I'm typing this super long comment. So try not to think I'm some sort of freak invading your life, I just find the idea of being a roadie fascinating. To give up your life for the sake of others (sacrificing a normal, functioning life to raise awareness about a broken nation, without living in a stable home and not knowing when your next meal is going to be, in this case) is such a selfless act, which is even more appealing since it's what Jesus calls us to do.
P.s. sorry i talk so much. for one thing, that's just my personality. another, is that it's 2:31 and i can't sleep and my roomates are catching up on their z's peacefully. and another is the fact that you're an IC roading. Invisible Children just gets me talking haha.
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