Nearly gave up.

God has this funny way of doing things sometimes. Maybe it's really not that God does things funny, maybe it's more like my mind. I was on fire for God and His word for a while, I was putting the teachings I was learning in to practice, I was serving, I was in open dialogue with God every single day. Then one day I had a little arguement with him (see prior blogs about that) and I kind of just shut down. I didn't want to serve a god that I didn't see as fair. I seem to have lost a bit of what I considered I was. I had seen the person God made and then I tried to wipe some of that person away. I bailed on church and many of the people who made up the church. And after I was near the bottom I realized Iiked it better when I wasn't upset with God. I liked it better when I wasn't worried if God was upset with me. I shut down with a lot of my close friends and I want to open up again. I want to run free while being inspired by His spirit. I want to get this filth out of my presence that I invited in. I am genuinely excited for the things that God is doing in my life and I am ready to take the next step knowing that I am in full support of my Father. "a proverb a day keeps the devil away." -b


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